pet muse

i remember now how your house has a piano, and how i played it in hope of getting your attention. i remember the cornflakes and you chopping onions for lunch.

i remember your room.

i remember your sheepish smile and unintended blush that was the most endearing i had ever come across, i remember thinking that many times. i remember your maturity and dependability and i remember your silent strength and covert character. i remember your laugh, i remember your taunts. i cherished them alike.

i remember your running, the look on your face when you pushed yourself. i remember your cutting remarks. i remember feeling hurt enough to cry, once or twice. i remember you pushing my head. i remember the feel of my fingers in your hair for that one second. i remember my first look at you. i remember our first conversation, i remember your horoscope.

i remember feeling safe with you, even if you always laughed at me, made fun of me. i remember the trampoline and i remember you did not come out to watch me. i remember your guitar-playing, i remember the concentrated look on your face. i remember your sudden bursts of moving words, i remember looking up and facing your gaze, i remember your hurried turning away. i remember your subtleties, i remember them all even if they never existed