essence, evaporation

because the strongest of today's societal constructs are free competition and free market, there is a best friend who keeps things because we are technically competitors, there is a fear when asking for notes from a friend, there is a silence that permeates the aftermath of someone; anyone, asking for a something that may possibly potentially just probably put you in a relatively less stronger position than before.

of course, subjectivity is another trait all too common, hence the rise of blogging. intellectual narcissism, pseudo-preachin, the works.

i would just like to say that i curb loneliness by browsing through my friends' pictures on the internet, i hide behind the screen so when the sudden wails come i can maintain some semblance of dignity, i visit your blog to read about you when i miss you, and you. maybe even you.

he said that he has no time for poetry because it is too messy, it entails too much of the peripherals of life. and you? what's your excuse?

so much loneliness in this world and all we do is turn over to the tv page, equate the picture of one dying child to another, go to another country and take pictures of suffering people and say they are happy and cry when we leave and return to our town window-shopping and more emotional projection, surf the online shops of our friends to remember their faces, touch the image of a smiling face and try to absorb; comprehend, the joy.

i hated being alone at home, and i would sing all throughout my shower until my throat was sore - i hated being alone at home, and i hated being alone at night, until i realised that i am alone wherever i am. standing a metre away from you, and i can hardly articulate the songs i want to sing infront of you the dances i want to perform the touch i want to feel and let you feel the tears i want you to wipe away the smile i want to conjure and much more and much less.

exams are ending soon, and all that this entails