good morning

surely, everything being a matter of perception along a spectrum of possibilities, there is an extreme - a most so, and a least so.

and surely, the most spastic way to wake up has got to be how i did today. last night, mingyang and i talked from 1am to 4am about the possibilities of conspiracy theory and how there might be some seriously stunning engineering by way of purposeful planning in events aimed at reducing the global population.

regarding this, there is (as always in cases of deluded individuals and eventually proven right advocates alike) an immense body of information from which a possible case stems. but. the fact is - this planet is overpopulated by man.

the fact is, that genetically modified food is not healthy for us. the fact is, that economics is skewed in its very oligopoly by corporations, and thus by a few people. and the fact is, that whether or it is true our demise are being planned as you speak and as i type and sniffle and as my beloved brother snores, it truly is time for us to rethink the way we are living our lives.

anyway. so i was dreaming that i had a friend who had finally dared to go into a relationship with a guy she really and truly liked a lot, and she had gone to the airport to study with him. her uptight dad found out and flipped like yi ge spastic roti prata, and was in my kitchen scolding the shit out of me for orchestrating the devastation of his daughter's innocence, as he put it.

and i gave this really long, whiny, self-righteous, indignant monologue about how there is always more than one way to look at things, and how he should never allow his fear and love for his daughter be the reason that she does not get to live her life, yada yada bla bla,

and in the midst of speaking, i was so worked up, so animated, so angry, that i woke myself up with the indignance.

oh my god.

usually, my first utterance each morning is a groan at having to wake up. today, the moment i open my eyes (my mouth actually feeling dry from dream speaking), i said in my normal voice - not even the just woke up pseudo sexy one -

you gotta be kidding me.