there is more to thank for

pull in to dread
pool into dread

there is opportunity to attempt
there is room to try
there is forethought for backup
there is reassurance for alternative
there is agreement to additions
there is support to bolster
there is humour to deconflict
there is accommodation for inexperience
there is extra mile for this shortcoming
there is extra mile for this lack
there is extra mile for this inadequacy.

you want to gag at yourself you can go and gag
but don't gag until you don't reach out for the cure already on extended hands.
okay.
you are not kickass and you know it but you can do this. people will help. if you cannot do it don't waste everyone's time. acknowledge your inability and ask for help. then act on the advice and check for feedback again. if you know you cannot then explain it and find a way about it.

come on. younger than people does not mean eternally subservient and inferior. education is continuous and will only ensue with effort, humility, and self-understanding. you know this. so show it.