hi again

it's been awhile. so far, it is still a mad rush to learn enough, quickly enough, and churn enough, write edit re-edit rewrite enough, run here and there, first small class (nerves!), service at restaurant thrice thus far eyebrows still an issue everyday got shallow headache cause make too many faces. running..not so much. had a thorough and teary talk with mingyang yesterday. our tale very sordid and convoluted i don't know how to tell you without taking like maybe 2 days of your time, so things are okay loh, and insert shrug and smile. and eyebrows.

when chengs let me know she was mad about my absence from (another) gig, this time a major one, i begun to realise that i have never been there for any of my friends who have been there for me each time i needed them, chengs, june, aya, among others, these being the most recent ones i've missed. and it is terrifying to understand that friendship is fragile and is fallible. i will refrain from seeking sympathy until i have proved at least some semblance of deserving for attention. i wish you best for your prep.

a key change has been an insane, insane preoccupation with following links to obscure and interesting insights designs writings dialogues speeches artwork etc etc. another is the tendency to lose interest in writing other than for essays and tweets. like now. so, best, wish you love hope faith, nights

school and spools of thought

the first thing i have learnt is that there is too much information to be absorbed. there are too many of us on this globe and too much turbulence in each of us, and the human race is one very big very colourful abit smelly and extremely tangled mess of threads, tied tight enough incidentally to easily be misconstrued as a neat spool.

secondly it is insanely difficult to condense very complex issues into fair portrayals in essays.

thirdly, my writing is too convoluted to be true!

fourthly, each of my essays has been through at least 4 drafts, and i need to bounce off others before i can spot my own mistakes. this reliance on the afore explained messy humanity thus spells my doom.

and fifth, i am sincerely perturbed by how i feel about you. not gonna change anything but. well. just..yea. aiya.

hi

last year's jdc, i fell. here is the video: http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=74796410900&subj=738911001
last saturday's salsa competition, i fell. here is the video: http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=414359316234&ref=mf

smiles.