every day ask your self

is this how you would like to live your life? in fear of censure over admittance to a failing that is consequence of your many years of ignorance, laziness, fright and guilt? if not, then don't. don't do it, do not succumb blindly to something when there is another thing you can do to at least begin to rectify your weakness.

at the very least, be a worthy failure and learn something from this. wisdom does not come from popularity or acceptance, it is earned through failure, embarrassment, disappointing others, disappointing yourself, and burden all around. it is precious precisely because it is hard-earned.

you are weak. admit it. you have taken a mini step to changing that by admitting your failing and now you have to ease away what little you can of the burden you have placed upon others, by concentrating on tha task at hand and not your damn navel.

this will be over soon, yes, but the journey is long yet. it will not be the last failure but it can be the worst if you learn well from this one. nothing worthwhile comes easy. you gotta stick to it and you gotta stick to it. many people are behind you. they are not even damning you openly yet. bank on this. do something useful. redeem yourself a little. even if only a little.

rah rah rachel. go go bee. oosh oosh oosh