a nanny complex

it is disarming to continually face circumstances in which people i care for go through turmoil that i can be of absolutely no help of. words matter little, concern washes away like unwanted rain, and company is incidental aid at best.

is the stuff of love songs so ephemeral and unattainable as to be laughable? you are safe in my heart, my heart will go on and on,
and on. and so forth. doesn't seem to help anything. those most glad and comfortable are those who are coming to terms with the fallacy of relationships.

this has been a bad week. lost phone, bought june's used iphone, got bombed by stunning news, scolded for not doing work properly, made a bad move and spent money i don't have on a phone that is not needed cause june's iphone started working. didn't read options properly and erased all data from the iphone. i cannot rid my futile and ineffective nanny complex. this is a mess.