all the questions of the world i leave behind

i'm going nowhere and i'm going to take my time
:waiting on the sun - sixpence none the richer

there a a few things that i mouth to your retreating figure, even though
i always make sure i am the one who walks away first. this lets me believe that i am the strong one. i made the choice to leave, it was my choice to make.

today, like always, i clicked on you and (re)read your unchanged alias. today, as always, i told myself i would be silent this time, i would not unleash my insanity on you.

today, as always, i failed.

i keep your window open and i imagine you are really talking to me in your heart as i am, though i have to say, i do not know what to say to you, i do not know who i am when i feel as the way i do.

there is a whole world out there, and i have many selves running about. when they collide, i hope i am not there to see the hilarious tragedy.

it is really, easy. just tell me to fuck the bloody hell off, or tell me you love me and always will as i do and don't. sense is just another social construct, care less for it i can not.

this will be my carousel
you will be my wonderwall
i will be your inextricable inconvenience
and we will be a silent fairytale
;not told. never heard. and always, always true

i'm shut out and shut in
everytime i reach out and reach in
so could you reach down and pull me out
(or am i just too far gone to be saved?)
:too far gone - sixpence none the richer