oh, oh oh ohm (gentle is the night)

i have shared my food, clothes, underwear, toothbrush, bed, toiletries, but i have never shared a table with anyone before.

this is a fact i truly appreciate tonight, together with realising that physical distance can be actually a blessing. being a million miles away i can spare you my monotony and daily toils and troubles and repeating woes. still repeating, still on repeat. if i confided you a year ago today i would confide in you tonight of the same thing.

on the bed on my side across the room i could not read the screen but i knew it was you. and it was you.

if you asked, i would tell you: yes, you are lovely. and i would lean in enough and close my eyes to inhale a thin, long, sincere breath, and immortalise your scent in an imprint on my heart.

but well there are many happy people who are nice and helpful and concerned and companiable and reliable, and there is nothing wrong with sharing a table because i get smiles and hugs and friendship - it is just, i am not lonely so long as i smile and am happy.

and so eternally gleeful i must be