in lieu of tears, eyedrops

here is a conversation with the mister.

b: hello?
my: hello!
b: hello!
my: hwere are u?
b: just went to starbucks to get coffee loh, walking home now
my: u ok not?
b: ya, why leh?
my: your message
b: orh. ya loh ya loh. aiya duno la (in retrospect, what the fuck does this line even mean)
my: hmmm. did something happen?
b: nothing la, nothing happend
my: work is it?
b: ya loh, work loh, same loh haha
my: did anything happen? (by this time if i were u ah dear i would have killed me. hahaha)
b: nothing la nothing happend (omfg)
my: hmmm, then?
b: just the same things loh, i keep thinking and thiking leh. i think i'm crazy
my: huh? why?
b: just keep thinking loh, wah they hate me la, i'm so dislikeable, then everything everything
my: erm. but did anything happen to make u feel this way?
b: no leh. just me. i'm just mad and paranoid
my: aiyo then u take a chill pill la!
b: i also know! but cannot leh! why ah? actually i'm quite funny one what, and okay one, why suddenly liddat
my: hahahahahaha
b: i duno leh. hais keep thinking and thinking like wah today i never do fast enough but then i stop myelf cause that time do too fast also not good but then keep thinking wah they must be saying why i so slow
my: ok stop. stop! u're buying coffee and walking home and talking to me can u just chill!!
b: orh. ok. i try. but hor i keep thinking later-
my: shut up!!
b: orh.
my: just shut up, and stop thinking. stop thinking! what's wrong with you! just stop thinking!
b: orh. ok. ok.

oh my god. how repulsive am i when paranoid, really.
quite funny. hahahahhahahha
haiyah mai emo la fuck